Internal Struggle

Hey Vincent, what the hell were you thinking when you started all this mess. now you are just wasting a space in the net. What made you think that you can handle you blog and your studies at the same time? You don't have tuition you know...

Why don;t you be a good boy and close up this place like all of your rational friends and start putting some effort on more beneficial things for example your studies. After all, you yourself did not agree on starting this blog entirely, so just cancel the bookmark on the toolbar and forget about the existence of this blog...

Stop lying to yourself. You can't handle this place. You couldn't even handle you life. Everything is such a mess! Intelligentsia informer KONON! You fail to obtain the lowest form of common sense and yet you pathetically use these powerful words. Do you still remember the pile of books you brought for your SPM? Do you actually think  that you can score straight A+'s in SPM with the exact amount of effort you put in your PMR? Stop dreaming! You were lucky in 2008. This is 2010. You spent the first half of your year for co-curricular activities that ended up with nothing you desired! Do you really think those bastards at school will give you the slightest appreciation for what you had done? Haha. 

Look at yourself. Do you really achieve something substantial after all these years of hard work, commitment and service? Did you honestly believe her when she said learning to serve above self would bring you far? Who would remember what you had contributed to build up such a school? Let us see what on earth had you achieved after so many years of SERVICE. Can't really figure it out can you? Do you still have that naive thought that you shall be granted the tittle you applied to their desk? Forget it! Why do you keep having these stubborn thoughts that they would give you such an honoured acknowledgment? You know that the world isn't as hopeful as it seems a long time ago and yet you still keep these silly thoughts within you. You are forewarned that these weaknesses shall cost you dearly.

After all these years, what had people been perceiving you? Do you think the image you present to them is sufficient to change their impression? Then why do you keep on acting someone you are not? Somehow you had failed your own school life. Consider starting a new one tomorrow on more crucial aspects like money and academic achievement.

If you really wish to continue this wild dream, GO ON! Keep pursuing this path and pave your own way to your failure in this life.

I have nothing more to say.

A trip to GM Plaza

I had lived in KL for  err.......17 years and yet I never knew that there was such a place in town! GM Plaza is not another shopping mall. It is a place where suppliers from PASAR MALAM buy their cheap stuff and sell it to us idiots at a cutthroat price!!!!! 

Seriously, The goods sold are way cheaper, except you have to buy them in bulk. There we are, standing in front of an 8 storey tall building near CHOW KIT. The shops are filled with shiny things, cloths, accessories, bags, shoes, watches, stuff, more stuff, and more shiny things. The place feels like a PASAR MALAM, except it is indoors and air conditioned. 

We(Pn. Azlina, Cik Azlina & Pn. Heng + Ida) used the Smart tunnel to Smartly escape from school. Why, you ask? Because of the DAMN National competition in Johor! We received the invitation only about two weeks before the competition.(GREAT!) We were also told that we have to set up a booth to compete with the others.(Huh?!) And some of the BODs gotta present the company profile and all the mess all over again like last year.(What?!) And all in MALAY!(Yay!!!!!!!!){Will elaborate on other posts}

You can imagine how hectic it was for all SoNNYBiZ Enterprise members. This feeling reminded me of the debate days. The mixed feeling of tension, excitement and fear. Due to lack of job delegation, or presumably, trust between the workforce, Ida & I were left with no choice but to go with the teachers to GM plaza to buy things to sell at our booth.

I felt that the pasar malam people had been earning heaps out of out pockets. The things are selling cheaper by almost 100%. The prices are cheap and the quality LOOKS good. There are a lot of jewllry shops that has the dazzling appearance that will cause your eyes to blink constantly and make you head spin. It is a gold rush for shoppaholics finding for cheap gold.

However, the trip was not as entertaining because while the teachers were hunting for stuff to be sold, our (Ida & I) were also searching, for FOOD! Sadly, this was what GM Plaza has to offer us.

All but no food.

We had our lunch at 3.30pm, with the Form 1 kids.

No Food Ground, 1st & 2nd Floor (General Merchandised) Comprise of wholesales of :- Watches, sunglasses, crystal, jewellery, perfumes, bedroom accessories, salt lamp, leather goods, all kinds of bags and other general merchandised.

No Food 3rd, 4th & 5th Floor (Ladies Street) Comprise of wholesales of :- Custom jewellery, stainless steel/titanium accessories, ladies bags/belt/wallet, undergarment, premium gift, home decor, hair accessories, soft toys, pashmina, tudung etc.

No Food 6th & 7th Floor Comprise of wholesales of :- Fashion clothing & apparels for ladies, men, kids & teenagers, such as T-shirt, full dress, 2 pieces dress, tangs, pants, malay dresses, tudungs, footwear etc.

What Should I Write???

Only after 1 week, so many things have happened. JULY is indeed a very busy month. Not to mention the coming examinations at August. It seems like due to other commitments this blog has to stop for the time being. I shall elaborate more on the historical events after all the hectic times.

Then here comes the main question. What should I write & how should I write it? Somehow I HAVE SECOND THOUGHTS FOR THIS BLOG....

It seems that I have not consider thouroughly about the structure of this blog. Hmm... That doesn't sound good....

Finally, it started

After a lot of consideration, he took up the challenge.
Knowing that it would cause more harm than good,

He started this blog anyways.

He felt that it is something he should do.

Somehow, DESTINIED to do.

Expressing his feelings and views online,

collecting feedback from others,

linking his mind and soul to important and wise people,

having a personal space in the virtual dimension of the internet.

He neeeeeeds it.

He neeeeeeds a place to blab out everything,(or at lest something)

He keeps within his soul.

He had enough of keeping things to himself ALL THE TIME.

Understanding how near was the examination of his life,

yet a lot of catching up he has to do,

he proceeded with this unmistakably mistakable decision.

Starting this blog would meant another commitment in his busy life.

Starting this blog would meant more time spent on the internet

and more DISCIPLINE to focus on his studies.

A key factor to his success

which he long craved for.

But then he needs this blog.

MUST have this blog to release his inner feelings and 

the information and knowledge within

To share it with the world.

Why?

That is his nature. You blame him.